Job Hunt Reject.

Can I just say a little speal?

SUMMER JOBS SUCK.

I can't tell you how many places I have applied to because it is quite the extraordinary number. Not to mention the overloading frustration of filling out application after application.. only for it to get SHUT DOWN. Oh the joy of rejection. Might as well start getting used to it now!

Summer hath begun.

I hate sunburns, and no matter how much aloe vera I apply to my tomato red skin,.. IT STILL HURTS. I have sunburnt shoulders, sunburnt legs, and sunburnt feet. Oh, and don't forget the Rudolph nose. Now I really know that summer is here. It may have come with a bittersweet greeting, but it has never felt better to know that Summer 2010 has finally started.

Not to mention the countless hours I spend watching the 2010 Fifa World Cup.. The world cup has caused me to realize how much I miss playing soccer. I love the sport so much :)

Can't wait to see what good times summer is going to bring!

Ugh.

I miss high school.
But then again, I don't :P

IT'S THE WEEKEND!!
Ugh. That means studying.
ONE MORE FINAL!!
Ugh. That means more studying.
UGH.

I'm ready for skewl to be ohvurrrrr. ;)





Studying sucks.


:)

The end is nearing..

Listening to music and sitting by my desk, I realized how much I'm going to miss this stuffy dorm room. I'm going to miss random visits from people amongst the second floor, the laughs, the cries, the smells... (of freshly sprayed febreze of course ;]), the late nights spent being distracted by facebook while I'm supposed to be doing homework, the random talks with my roommate...

This picture was taken the very first day we moved in...

CRAZY how fast time flies by.

And here we are.. About to say goodbye in a few days..

Well, only thing different back home is we'll be sleeping a mile and half away from each other.

We're gonna be inseparable this summer. I can feel it.

I'm not afraid to admit I'm going to miss it here while I'm back home for the summer. Yes, summer sounds quite amazing right now, but I'm leaving many memories behind. I've yet to figure out if I'm ready to leave the past behind.. What am I saying, of course I am! The past is the past, the good times and the bad. Love it or hate it, my life is swell :) The people I've met my freshman year have become my close friends. I love them to the moon and back.

Ahh, camping :)

With my girls! I'm going to miss them so much. These people mean so much to me and I'm never ever going to forget them. They've left their mark on my heart <3

Second floor homies fo' lyfe :)

Football season.. Can't wait for til the next time I'm in the bleachers again :)

My Club soccer team :) I love them so much!

We sure had some crazy times.

One thing I am definitely not happy about.. is leaving the person that means the world to me. Back home we live a few minutes away, but this summer will be different. 136 miles may not seem like a long distance.. but to me, it will feel like he's a billion miles away. The person that can put a smile on my face in the matter of milliseconds.. the person that makes me breakfast in the morning.. the person that calls me just to hear my voice.. the person that i'm going to miss the most... is going to be the hardest to leave.



We've known each other exactly 259 days. And I feel as if I've known him my whole life. This summer is definitely going to be our biggest obstacle, but I have faith in us :)

You know what they say...

"Absence makes the heart grow fonder" ;)

Now that I've got my depressive thoughts out..

finals are the DEATH of meeeeee!!!

My brain has melted into slush. Mush. Jelly.

Two more finals and two and a half more hours of working out until summer 2010 has my permission to rot my brain :)

It's Been A While..

So.. Summer is nearing, School is closing.. and now I'm going to finally have more time on my hands to begin blogging again. YAY!!!

I have missed it :)

Today while I was facebook creepin' (like always) I came across a "like" page.

It was..

"If God brought you to it, he will bring you through it."

This really caught my eye. I LOVE IT.

Ummm so updates of my life and what I've been up to..

-I'm obsessed with photography. Got a new camera. LOOOVING it.

-Turned 19 years old!

-Became BEST friends with my roommate Carly :) <3

-One whole quarter of school has flown by. I will be a sophomore in college after Wednesday, June 9th. Ahhhhh!!!

-I have a WONDERFUL boyfriend of almost two months.. He is amazing and can somehow manage to always keep me happy :)

-Lost 5 pounds. WHOOP WHOOP! Hahahahaha.

-Two words. BUNK BEDS!

-NEEDTOBREATHE concert!! So amazing <3

-Mastered the thizz face. Pretty proud of that, by the way.

-Went to Cat Tales in Spokane :)

-Went to Riverfront Park for the first time. Saw the Big Red Wagon!!

-Determined my major!! (Human Resource Management)

-Tied the Gonzaga Club Soccer team.

-Signed up for a Journey through my church!!

Pretty eventful Spring Quarter if you ask me.

And of course there are tons of other things that have slipped my mind.. hehe oh well.

I have no complaints, I'm pretty satisfied with life right now :)

Needtobreathe

Flower

Tiger at Cat Tales

Outskirts of Cheney, WA

Tree Flowers :)

One of my favorite pictures, by the way.

Lilacs... not only do they smell pretty, they LOOK pretty :)

Ta ta for now :)

Maaaaaahhhhhrvelous.

Welp.

Spring Break has ended.

School starts manana..

I have to admit that I sort of have mixed feelings about it.

Yay new people to meet!

Yay something to do!

Yay for reuniting with the wonderful people on my dorm floor!

Boo homework.

Boo teachers.

:)

Anyways, my spring break consisted of..

-hiking Badger

-roadtrip to Seattle

-hanging out with The Golden Girls :)

-spending time with the fambam

-a lunch date ;)

-celebrating my birthday since it's on TUESDAY!

-turning from a blond to a brunette

-consuming DELICIOUS girl scout cookies!

-meeting up with old friends

-shopping

-watching LOTS and LOTS of movies

-ugh, looking for a summer job :( I cannot seem to find one!

-getting my car fixed

-aaaaaaand MIRANDA LAMBERT CONCERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhh!!!!!

Pretty decent week if I do say so myself. I'm satisfied :)

It feels maaaaaaahhhhrvelous to be back in my dorm room. I have missed it. It's good to be back! :)

Productive Day

chilly breeze

smoke

hamburger smell

sunshine

colbie caillat

traffic sounds amidst

pheasants squanking (yes, squanking)

horses neighing

Sounds like the perfect evening to me :)

I'm sitting outside on my deck as we speak, and I'm in complete bliss.

My day has been quite productive... NOT.

1. Woke up.

2. Walked upstairs.

3. Had strawberry yogurt cheerios (THEY ARE SO YUMMY!)

4. Went back downstairs, grabbed my laptop from my room, came back upstairs.

5. Pulled up a resume outline so I could fill it out...

6. Watched tv all day.

7. Have I touched my resume? NOPE :)

8. Have I basically been scouring the internet all day? YEP.

9. I did go and pick up my sissy from her track practice. I left the house so my day was not a COMPLETE waste... in my eyes at least :)

10. Ate some delish bbq hamburgers.

Now, I'll wait for my tummy to digest and I shall go prancing in the dark :) (NIIIIGHTRUN!!) Whoop whoop! I love night running :)

Done!

I'm finally done with finals! One more quarter til' summer :) So excited. I've been studying like a maniac the past four days, and now my brain is resting :) This year has been FLYING by!! It seems like yesterday that I was moving into my dorm!! Holy macerole.

{There's an owl hooting outside, and I can hear it.

It better stop before I go to bed or I will be very upset :) }

Aaaaannnyyywwaaayyyyssssss, it's been a while since I've written! Ah!

There was a sign today at school, that read, "If you knew that you had a short life to live, how would you live your life differently?"

Really makes you think about life. About creation and why we are put on this earth. Why you're friends with the friends you have, why your thought process is the way it is.. Like what would happen if I was born in Mexico? What would my life be like? Or if I was born in Australia?? I've been having those type of questions a lot lately.. Why am I here??

I don't know, I just get into those kinds of zones that I just zone out and my mind wonders and asks questions that are hard to answer.

On the other hand, I'm home :)

Had the best dinner EVER tonight!!! Grilled cheese with tomato soup!!!

Ahhhh so YUMMY. My Mama did goooooood :)

I also got a new memory foam for my bed! I haven't slept in my own bed since the middle of summer. The couch has been my bed :) So I'm pretty excited about this new foamy stuff :)

Peace out girl scout.

Change.

One thing made me explode today. One thing. It amazes me how that thing is a person... How can one person ruin a good day... ESPECIALLY since that one person means so much to me.

It hurts to know that this person doesn't believe I can care for myself... i.e. cook food, do laundry, etc. Um, hello? I'm in college now. I AM living on my own.. I do my own laundry, I watch what I eat, I do my homework.. All the while without you watching over my shoulder. Jeez, thanks for the putdown and doubting me. Not to mention major breakdown time. Ouch.

But now I'm aware just how much I depend on other people...

Maybe it is time for me to finally branch out

and care even more for myself then I already do..

Maybe I DO need to be more independent..

Maybe I need a reality check..

Maybe it is time for a change...

A change in me.

I don't know what this change is going to be. I'll definitely be praying about it. Hopefully it's a good change and that it will turn things in my life around, for the better.

"I am the light for the world! Follow Me, and you won't be walking in the dark. You will have the light that gives life."

John 8:12

Lodge Grass, Montana

Have you ever put on a shirt in the morning,

and been in a good mood from there on out?

I have.

Today, I put on my loser shirt.

Yep, LOSER.

But this isn't any ordinary loser shirt.

This one is special :)

It's black and says "loser" on the front,

and has a unique saying on ze back.

"he who finds his life will lose it,

and he who loses his life for my sake will find it." - Jesus

I LOVE this shirt.

Not only does it remind me of awesome Jesus is..

But it also reminds me of a life changing experience I had over the summer...

The mission trip to Lodge Grass, Montana.

Crow Reservation.

Summer 2009.

I wish I could go back.

I miss this so much. I can't even put into words how much I miss it.

A rad youthgroup that changed my life.

One of a kind kids that changed my life.

God changed my life.

"You, my brothers and sisters, were called to be free..."

Galatians 5:13a

Free from the desire for FAME

Free to share WEALTH

Free to know God's POWER

Free to be REVOLUTIONary

FREE

All this while spending time with Crow Indian children.

Easily, this was the best time of my life.

I miss the smiles, the happiness, the togetherness...

I even miss the endless piggypack rides.

I miss Kirsten. She was the sweetest little girl I have ever laid my eyes on..

( This is her ^^^ )

She even made me a purple and pink pipeliner bracelet!

Which I never take off. Ever. It's my reminder of her and the trip :)

I also miss Aleana and Ellie, two girls from my church youthgroup.

I became friends with them instantly.

We bonded so incredibly well.

They mean so much to me and we are going to

be friends for the rest of our lives.

I know it :)

Ohhhh, Lodge Grass how I wish I could go back.

It's amazing how one place can change you forever.

Thankfully for me, it was for the better :)

Work Ethic.

You know, it really upsets me when people don't give their all. It bothers me to an extent and I guess you could say it's a really intense pet peeve. INTENSE. For example: today at soccer practice, there were a couple of girls, that acted like practice was a joke to them and that they didn't even care. They put forth NO effort. Oh look, there goes the ball. What was I supposed to do again? OH YEAH. Kick it with my foot. If you come to practice, show up to play. Show up to PRACTICE. If you're just going to goof off then don't show up because you're just wasting my time and the teams time. Gain some work ethic somewhere between now and next Monday, please. Anyways, I just had to blow off some steam and preach my opinion :)

On the other hand, I figured out I have a new obsession!

Wild Cherry Pepsi. Boom.

SOOOOOO GOOOOOOOOOOOOD. Instantly changed my mood. That, and Snow White and the Seven Dwarves! It's been quite a while since I've watched it, and boy does it bring back memories. Back when I didn't even think about writing 10 page papers, or worry about working out everyday. Back when I didn't even know something simple as to how to drive a car. Back when I looked forward to recess, played freeze tag with other little kids and had hopskotch competitions. The good ol' days :) BUT, I'm happy where I am in life right now. Very happy :) And I plan to stay that way for a long time :)

Smile.

SMILE [smahyl] : to assume a facial expression indicating pleasure, favor, or amusement, but sometimes derision or scorn, characterized by an upturning of the corners of the mouth.

Walking from Math to English today, I saw something rather mood changing. Someone had written "Smile" in chalk on the sidewalk. You don't see that everyday! Especially on a college campus. Needless to say, I was particularly happy from then on. It made me think about how a simple thing like smiling can change your mood (if you really put some effort into it, that is). I realized just how many things and people make me smile at the thought. The list is literally endless..

But then at the same time, there is a countless amount of things that can destroy that smile... that can destroy this illuminated happiness.

I found this quote earlier today while looking for a "Smile" picture (I don't have a camera to take pictures with, so might as well steal some off the internet, right?).

"Smile... it's the key that fits the lock of everybody's heart."

So Smile today. Smile everyday. Flash someone a smile. It'll make your day and their day better :)

Gloomy days call for gloomy mood? No way.

I think I'm starting to get the hang of this whole 'BLOG' thaaang'. I really enjoy capitalizing BLOG as well.. It kind of gives the word some spunk. In my opinion, anyway. I've been looking forward to this post ALL day. Literally. I've added a fishy tank, a picture of my wonderful sisters and a freerice.com ad :) I'm figuring out all of the layout settings, post setting, etc. Pretty productive BLOG day it seems like!

My day so far has been particularly long. I didn't really sleep well last night because I had three nightmares. Yes, THREE! They were terrible :( I DID luck out on presenting my research paper though. I don't know how, but I have no complaints. Gives me an extra day to spice it up ;) It is rather gloomy today, and windy as well. UBER cold. I have to admit as much as the 'gloominess' may portray, I didn't mind the rainy weather. It just gave me an excuse to sport my sweats :) I kept my eyes peeled to the sky for any sign of a rainbow, but it must have been playing hide and seek with me. Sad day :( I am quite excited to play soccer in the rain though, that's always fun and slippy-slidy ;)



I came across a really intriguing bible verse today, and so I thought I would share :)

"You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of lives."
- Genesis 50:20

I found it on a website for the Taylor Hooton Foundation.. a boy who committed suicide from the side effects of discontinuing steroid use (depression, hopelessness, etc...) It really makes you stop and think for a bit.

Ta-ta for now :)

Mind, be free.

So. Woke up this morning, around 11:30 in the AM. To say the least, for a Sunday morning it was a pretty typical wake up time. Basically spent ALL day "working" on a research paper due tomorrow {of course I saved it for the day before.. what do you expect?!}. Whilst typing and editing this horrendous and dreadful 10-page paper, I thought of ways to procrastinate. Usually I facebook, or check my email, surf other websites on the web, watch tv, download music...the list goes on and on. But today's procrastination idea was different. I wanted to BLOG. I feel as if BLOGGING will help refresh my mind :) It's like being able to BLOG is like telling my mind to be free. So here I am. Mind, be free :) I am looking forward to writing about random thoughts and I'm not necessarily searching for my BLOGS to be read.. no no. Just for anyone who wants to take a gander at my wonderful BLOG, then they shall. No holding back. My mind, is going to be let free into the wild. Like letting a wild animal go free after being captured. Wild animal, rawr, into the wild I plunge.